Charlie was known under this URL until 28.7.12, when he committed suicide by overdose. This blog is a memorial and a reminder to not forget him. He will be missed.RIP CharlieTumblr (3.0; @delia-smith)http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/some times i wonder if i could have saved you. i wonder if maybe i had stayed home that night and helped you, or gotten someone better to help you, maybe, just maybe you would have stayed. i still have my bear that i named after you and i hug it every night. i miss you a lot. love you, charlie.http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/50405951617http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/50405951617Tue, 14 May 2013 02:40:10 -0400hi Charlie, just thought i'd update you on some things, maybe you can see this blog up there(i can only hope) anywho, Since your passing, the phandom has been much nicer and caring for each other which is nice c: Dan also passed 1million subscribers! and They won an award for the radioshow they do! I know you'd be proud of them. We all love and miss you very much, see you again one day, darling.http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/50405391512http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/50405391512Tue, 14 May 2013 02:24:41 -0400hi charlie!!!! it's lilly. i have some excited news that makes me happy. one, i got a girlfriend wowie i'm so cool. two i'm going on a 16 day trip in europe during the summer of 2014!!!!! i'm excited ahhhhh. miss you dudehttp://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/49976831216http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/49976831216Wed, 08 May 2013 21:13:27 -0400in 3 months it will be one year since you passed. it doesn't feel like it's been almost year, but wow it has. i miss you so much.http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/49116878087http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/49116878087Sun, 28 Apr 2013 15:55:52 -0400I inboxed you... sorry for being so blunt with that previous message, I imagine it ruined the blog :/ sorry...<p>It’s no problem sweetie. Try sending it again though! I haven’t gotten your message ):</p> <p>-<a href="http://www.danalmostcaughtonfire.tumblr.com/ask">danalmostcaughtonfire</a> (Victoria)</p>http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48649565751http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48649565751Mon, 22 Apr 2013 19:45:07 -0400I think I'm going to be joining you up there soon. Make sure you're ready, I'm coming to meet you!<p>We do not condone self harm or suicide. Please be safe sweetie! Call 1-800-273-8255 if you live in the US or look up the suicide hotline for your country. I want and need you to be okay. Please come talk to me if you don’t want to call. I don’t mind if you stay on anon. Please just talk to someone. I love you.</p> <p>-<a href="http://danalmostcaughtonfire.tumblr.com">danalmostcaughtonfire</a> (Victoria)</p>http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48648227472http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48648227472Mon, 22 Apr 2013 19:28:00 -0400i still miss you more than ever. i wish i had been not scared and at least tried to help you. i love you and i hope you're happy where you are now.http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48647737748http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48647737748Mon, 22 Apr 2013 19:22:29 -0400I think it's really brilliant that this blog's still updated, you'll never be forgotten, Charlie<3http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48384828377http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48384828377Fri, 19 Apr 2013 17:59:11 -0400in 4 months and 10 days, it will be one year since you passed. i really miss you. i'll always miss you. you were my best friend, dude. you were basically my only friend. agh. i wish you were here still, but hopefully you're happy now. i love ya, ok.http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48319359891http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48319359891Thu, 18 Apr 2013 20:51:28 -0400(i just realised that my computer put 'if you told knew' which is weird but ahhhh. i should've gone over the ask but i was crying ok bye)http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48230969296http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48230969296Wed, 17 Apr 2013 18:48:29 -0400---- idk i just wanted to share that with you, charlie. i love you lots and miss you. xo lillyhttp://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48220907363http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48220907363Wed, 17 Apr 2013 16:37:08 -0400hi charlie, it's me lilly. last night i met joel faviere. i told him that you showed me 'if you told knew' and then told him that you had passed away (and how). i also told him how i tried to kill myself, and that i'm (sadly) still a self harmer. he hugged me for a good five minutes, told me that i was beautiful for still being here, and then said that you were probably smiling at me now for not going through with my plans. i cried on his shoulder, thanked him a bunch, and hugged him more. ----http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48220901441http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48220901441Wed, 17 Apr 2013 16:37:04 -0400it's been a while since i've been on your blog, charlie. i really miss you. i went almost two weeks without cutting, but last night i fucked up and cut. i'm sorry. but there's so much i wish you could've seen, so many people i wish you could've met. i've been thinking about making a little video about stuff for you, but haven't had time. i miss you, dude. and i love you a lot. -lilly.<p>Remember you can come talk to the admins of this page any time you feel necessary if you feel as though you may cut again! We want you better, Miss Lilly <3</p> <p>-Victoria (danalmostcaughtonfire)</p>http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48076821537http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/48076821537Mon, 15 Apr 2013 19:35:34 -0400I'll never forget that night. You were so loved. You always will be.http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/47160361279http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/47160361279Thu, 04 Apr 2013 22:30:21 -0400It still hurts that you're gone. So much. You were one of my only friends and my girlfriend, I still feel like it's my fault. I hope you smile when you look down on me, I'm not suicidal anymore and its been almost 4 months since I cut. I love you and I miss you, life will never be the same without you, Charlie - Zoehttp://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/46982377362http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/46982377362Tue, 02 Apr 2013 21:01:19 -0400I hope you're happy where you are Charlie. You were one of the first blogs I followed and I miss you. Oh god how i miss you.http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/46626331883http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/46626331883Fri, 29 Mar 2013 18:05:57 -0400I still miss you Charlie. I'm getting a little better, but gosh, I miss you so much. It hurts, and its hard. Gosh, I just really miss you. I wish you would have stayed. You and Liv, goddam, I miss you guys. <3http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/46287180212http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/46287180212Mon, 25 Mar 2013 18:51:15 -0400i miss you so, so much, charlie. i will always remember you, as long as i live, and i will always love you. this all sounds so cheesy, but i miss you so fucking much and here i am again, crying. dammit. i love you, charlie, forever.http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/46174525031http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/46174525031Sun, 24 Mar 2013 13:40:08 -0400Up at 2am thinking about you again. Crying as much as i did the night you pasted again. Feeling an empty space in my heart again. Still regretting not talking to you again. Love and miss you so so so much, hope to see you one day. <3http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/45776841032http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/45776841032Tue, 19 Mar 2013 16:30:36 -0400there's never a day where i don't think about you. i love and miss you charlie, and i hope you're in a better place now. <3http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/45220198548http://delia-smith.tumblr.com/post/45220198548Tue, 12 Mar 2013 18:36:10 -0400